You made my life complete. You taught me what it is to love so deeply that it hurts. It hurts so bad. I keep trying and trying but it's never enough. It doesn't even get me in the door.
I watched you with your little girl tonight. I could tell you were getting tired and I wanted nothing more than to take her and give you a break. But I knew you wouldn't want that. You've always been so stubborn. But with your parents I guess that is to be expected. The way she looked at you tonight was pure love. You used to look at me like that. I used to be your world, day and night, and you were mine. I hope you know that the way you feel about her is exactly how I feel about you. There was nobody more perfect than you. I wonder if you know I still think you're perfect. I couldn't have had an easier first born. You always tried your hardest at everything.
And you, I was afraid to have a number two. Could I be good enough for both of you? I know I fell short but you never did. You could light up the room with your smile and deep laugh. And of course those big eyes melted my heart the first time they looked at me. You were so loved from the moment you were tried for. I wanted you so badly. Together you both became my day and night. And there was nobody more perfect than the two of you. You're both still so perfect.
And then you, my surprise. I didn't expect to be blessed with you so easily. But the Lord knew I needed you. You were the one that could fit into the smallest space just to be near me. You were the comedian in the family and could make everyone laugh. You had to share my lap with my number two because you were so close together. You three became my day and night. And there was nobody more perfect than the three of you. You're all still so perfect.
And then the biggest surprise, you. I didn't know how much I needed you and I probably don't appreciate how much I still need you. You give me purpose in the darkness. You are my day and night. You four are my day and night. There is nobody more perfect than the four of you. You're all still so perfect.
So I am making a decision that has taken me years to get to. I will make a life with number four and it will be a good one. I will keep her my day and night because she deserves and needs it. One, two, and three are blowing in the wind and as hard as I try I cannot catch you. You don't want to be caught. So I'll let you blow for a while and hope you blow back home.
