Well I'm a grandma. One of my most beautiful treasures has created a new level of perfection. Lacey has always been amazing. Many of you watched her grow into an amazing woman.
So what's it like to be a grandma?
Well for me, I have no clue. I haven't met my perfect granddaughter, Lucie Michele. I have sent presents. I have seen pictures. I have done screen shots of pictures. I don't get them sent to me directly. I printed a couple and have them up at my desk at work. She's absolutely perfect, but did we really think Lacey could produce anything less than perfect?
So far being a grandma is sad. I missed out on one of the most important times in my daughter's life. I missed her entire pregnancy. I was the last to find out she was pregnant. I was pushed out of everything a new grandma looks forward to. I have been replaced.
Now, I know there are people out there that believe there is good in everyone. But unfortunately I have seen differently. I have watched someone lie about so many things. She knows I know she's lying but she has made sure that nobody believes me. I have been mocked and bullied. She didn't just steal my husband she stole my children. She can have the husband, he's shown his true colors. But the girls were not ever up for grabs. A woman I still have never met has made it her entire life's goal to destroy my life. Why? No clue. No clue except she wanted my life. She saw someone that she believed had money with a big house and expensive truck and two businesses. She not only destroyed my family but she destroyed her own. All because she was greedy. She didn't care who died. If they got in her way she'd plow them down. She gets what she wants. Even her own family knows how dishonest and evil she is. He has used everything we built together to take me down. And no new mom, you don't get any credit for anything except being a selfish gold-digger.
I got in her way. I tried to save my marriage. She turned a man that I always thought was pretty honest into a lying hateful beast. She was apparently right that he had money, he was just hiding it from me. How else could he afford to continue to beat me down in Court?
So how do I fix my shattered life? I keep going. I have been asked by several people how on Earth I keep going. Because I know what they are trying to push me to do. They've succeeded before. And he knows that my kids have been my life and are the best way to knock me down. But instead of giving them what they want, I am walking away. I am walking away from my kids. I am walking away from my granddaughter. I want nothing more than to have them all in my life but they have made it clear they don't want me in their lives. They have a new mom that has made sure to turn them against their REAL mom. And no new mom, you could never love my kids more than me. Or even close to as much as me.
What hurts the most is how easily my girls, that I did everything for, have no compassion or love for me.
But I can't fight anymore. Sophie needs me. I have absolutely nothing left. Financially he wins. I can't compete. Do you all know that one thing he is fighting in Court is that he says I owe him $60,000 for using our JOINT checking account to pay house payments and he wants all those payments back. And he lived there too! As did all our kids. Yes, he really wants to cheat and destroy our family and expects me to PAY him for it.
I need to worry about Sophie now who you have all decided isn't worth your time. She has no siblings at my house anymore. None of you try to contact her. None of you try to see her (unless you can do it in a way that hurts me and honestly not often). You use me as an excuse not to see her but we all know it's crap. I have let you take her places that I am not so you all know that's an option. But you don't even try. She won't have you to run to for her first broken heart because she won't have a connection or relationship with any of you. I hurt so much for me. But I hurt so much more for her. Nobody has even stopped to think about what you are doing to her. But she has me. Always will. And she deserves better.
I love my Lacey. Always have. I love my Emma. Always have. I love my
Aly. Always have. I still have unopened Christmas presents at my house for Emma and Aly. From your first breaths I have given all of me to you. I've always bragged about all of you because you are
worth bragging about. I love you little Lucie and I hope some day I can meet you. And I always will love
you all. I'm always here for you. I will be waiting.
